Ankle update

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Sometimes it dawns on me how long ago it has been since I had the accident and how much has changed in my life due to that stupid accident… I still can’t walk and next week is going to be an important week as I have a check up at the hospital with hopefully good news. I made the mistake today, kind of in preparation for tuesday, to check some information on a talus fracture and of course I found mostly horror stories of people that are still not able to walk after 5 years. And they had ‘only’ broken it, not shattered.

And it hits me harder sometimes than it does other times. Today was one of those days; home alone, not able to get out of the house or even do the most simple of things as that would require either standing or being able to go upstairs. I cannot go grocery shopping, I cannot walk around.. Blegh… And it’s been so long… πŸ™

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I am grateful I can still do the majority of my work so that helps at least in killing the time during the week, but the weekends are hardest. Tom is out to work and I cannot do much other than work on my laptop, read a book and such but even that gets old after three months of nothing.

So yes fed up and even more fed up that there is no finish line as of yet. No one knows how long it will take to be able to get some sort of function back in my right ankle if at all. My foot is at a weird angle and definitely not as it should be. So it kind of looks like it is not growing together the right way.

I am practising with crutches but I can’t do much more than 10 meters and back. My left ankle (which of course was also broken) is weak and my leg muscles non existing, despite doing daily exercises. It’s the weight bearing thing that is hard. I can stand up so I try to do that as often as I can to strengthen those muscles too but it is going insanely slow. Far too slow for my taste.

If only I knew it would be 6 months or whatever, but right now everything is uncertain. Yes, people tell me it will heal, but those people really are just saying it to comfort me, and have no idea. Not even the doctors know and they are the last to tell me it will heal as they just don’t make those promises.

So it’s hard and it sucks and I just had to get that of my chest. I’m usually in a more positive mode than today though and I will be again tomorrow. I promise!

Simone van den Berg

Food- and travelblogger from the Netherlands. Loves good food. Loves to taste good food the world over. She also loves to share travelstories, delicious recipes and ok, cat pictures too. She sometimes feels the need to get really healthy for a while, always mingled with periods of insanely delicious sweets and other decadent treats. Lives together with Tom and their two cats; Humphrey and Buffy. Profession: Food photographer

10 comments

  1. Oh that does suck Simone! Glad you can get it off your chest. Wish there was something we could do to really help aside from listening, encouraging or raging with you and Tom. Hang in there Honey, one crutch st a time. Big hugs xox

  2. Simone: Oh honey I’m so sorry that it is not healing as fast and well as you need it to.
    I will be praying for healing.

    Right now I’m in the same boat as you.
    A couple of weeks ago I fell down a few stairs.
    I broke my ankle and leg and have done major damage and will be not moving for at least six weeks, and then we shall see.

    I understand your frustration and yes it does suck.

  3. Oh sweet lady, I’m sorry you’re struggling. I can’t believe it’s been 3 months already, and I can’t believe you’re still in such a pickle πŸ™
    Are the crutches uncomfortable on your hands on is it your other ankle that’s the problem? I found that wrapping the handles in foam & hand towels made it much more comfortable to use, and at least crutches give you a little independence.
    I was in a road accident when I was 17 and along with various physical problems I sustained a head injury, concussion with accompanying chronic depression for 18 months afterwards. With no light at the end of the tunnel I totally understand the black times that come with an injury like this.
    Please shout if you ever want to vent,I’m here for you. Big hugs xxx

    • O wow that sounds like a pretty hefty accident you were in Janie! But I wasn’t allowed to do much on crutches before last week. In the meantime I’ve got the green light to start using crutches and slowly putting weight on the ankle but it is uncomfortable and stiff. Which probably is logical after three months so it’s work in progress and have also started with physio now. Fingers crossed it improves soon.

  4. Really stinks what you’re going through. Hope you get good news next week.

  5. Hello Simone,Β 
    I’ve just red your blog and that’s how I feel just now. I twisted my ankle and earned nondisplaced talar neck fracture. That was 6 weeks ago, and I’m still in cast. My life seems to stopped and I worry about the future. How are you doing now?

    • O boy. So sorry to hear that! It’s a year after the accident and while I can walk again it still hurts and I do not have full range of motion in my ankle so I cannot walk very far. Having said that remember that my ankle was crushed and put back together with 9 screws and a plate so I’ve come further than anyone ever expected.
      Not sure where your talus is fractured but most of all it requires a lot of patience. I hope you heal quickly and fully! Wishing you well!!

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